Back On My Feet

BEFORE YOU READ THIS: Please don't get wrong impression with what I am saying. I don't feel sorry for myself, and you shouldn't (and I hope you don't) feel sorry for me. I am absolutely happy with the way things are and I hope you are viewing this with the same optimism that I am.

As some of you know, I didn't audition for 99.9 % of shows at UNC last year. I wanted to make sure that I would get settled into college, have good grades, and be able to appropriately manage my time with school and work. For the second time around, I am auditioning for everything I can. I've already had two auditions and have another tomorrow night. I haven't gotten callback yet and I am totally fine with that. Every audition is a learning experience and I am grateful for that. Bright Ideas was a long shot because it is a "main stage" show and there are brilliant actors at this school. As for Corduroy, that was purely for the audition. Would it have been nice to make it? Of course. But I need a lot of work on my comedic side. It is something that I am hoping I can start diving into a little bit more.

Chaos auditions are tomorrow night at 6:20. Chaos does a lot of different styles of improvisation which I would love to do. I know what I need to do for these auditions and I'm really excited to be working with Walt and Amanda. I think we'll have a good time. :]

There is some statistic that is like an actor only lands 1 in every 10 auditions. It is part of being in this industry and I feel like I am doing really well so far. Rejection is a hard thing for some people and I am really proud of myself for not being upset and mulling over it. Worrying is going to get me no where! My time will come, I just need to be patient.

I'm grateful that I can at do what I love and that I am back out there trying again. You miss every opportunity you don't take and I am going after everyone I can!

With My Eyes On The Prize,

~Steffanie

Ah...We Meet Again...

Summer is officially over and I am greeted once again by the sights and sounds of Northern Colorado's campus. As I prepare to dive head first into a semester waiting with memories to be made, I think about how grateful I am for the summer I just experienced. It seems impossible with the amount of time I spent working, but I had more fun this summer than probably any other. Paint fights, new besties(!!), salsa dancing, hiking, volleyball... Even though it was the summer, these seem like Christmas Lights to me. Something I want to light up my life and fill me with sheer happiness and gratitude.

End of Summer Checklist:

Number of Yoga Classes: 5

Number of Books Read: 7 (Peace Like A River, The Last Song, Revolutionary Road, The Hunger Games, Slumdog Millionaire, Eat Pray Love, and Catching Fire. All of which I highly recommend)

Number of Paint Fights: 2

Number of S.E.X. meetings: More than the public needs to know ;)

Number of Jobs: 2

Number of Attractive Chippendales: 12

Number of Almost Fatal Car Accidents: 1

Number of Salsa Dancing Partners: 7 Sexy Studs!

Number of Days I Would Trade: None. :)

To all of you who shared in these adventures with me, thanks. I can't wait for next summer!

Soaking Up The Sun,

~Steffanie

I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now...

This might sound a little insane, but I really love airports. There are so many different people walking around you; some going home, and some going to discover unexplored destinations. It's really interesting to see who's walking around and wonder who they are and think about the lives they may lead. This is most likely just because I am a people watcher, but its one of the best parts of traveling.

But as I sit in this little cafe at the end of the terminal, I am thinking of you. I have come to a realization of sorts. People tell me that it's never going to happen and that I need to be more realistic. But I say that if you don't dream big, then what's the point of dreaming?? So know that I am not "giving in" because of those people. It's because I know that you're happy right now. And if this is how life has to be for you to be happy, then that will have to do. I will always have a spot in my heart with your name on it. It seems silly and almost impossible, but because of you I am learning about myself and becoming a person that I am really proud of. For that, I am eternally grateful.

Admiring the Beautiful Mess,

Steffanie